Something I’ve been noticing

I’m sitting at the doctor’s.

There’s a particular kind of waiting that happens in places like this. Not rushed. Not dramatic. Just suspended. Time slows down, and the body becomes harder to ignore.

I’ve had this strange sound in my chest since June. Subtle enough to dismiss. Persistent enough to return. Seven months later, I finally said to myself, let’s check it out.

Maybe it’s something.
Maybe it’s nothing.

And still, it already is something, simply because my attention keeps finding its way back to it.

I notice how much I want an answer. How quickly I want reassurance, or at least a sentence that starts with “it’s just…”. I notice how unfamiliar it feels to sit here without moving away from the question.

There’s a part of me that prefers what’s light, expansive, full of possibility. That part has served me well. It has kept me curious, forward-looking, alive to what could be.

And yet, sitting here, I can feel the other side of that pattern too. The way it gently steers me away from what might slow me down. From what might ask me to stay.

So I wonder.

Where else in my life is something slightly off? Not wrong. Not broken. Just quietly asking for my attention.

Because perhaps the places we avoid in order to keep life full are the very places that deepen it.

What might become possible if you paused long enough to take a look at the thing you’ve been quietly avoiding?

Love ,

Rita

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